Some might wonder why I say New Year :(, as most normal people are excited for a new year and a new beginning. For once in my life I am not, for good reasons. I have had such a fantastic year this year, filled with friends, love, family and great achievements. Tyler moved back from Tallahassee in January of 2009 and that was a great next step, as we had been doing long distance for 8 months. I hit my number for work on January 1 in 2009, and was very proud of my accomplishments. My big sister got married in November of 2009 and it was a great month to see all of our family and friends together.
Here are some pictures from some favorite moments:
A Cruise we took with Tyler's sister Ashton and her boyfriend Anthony. It was a great time!
ADPi's 100 year celebration! It was so fun seeing everyone together! This picture above is my Peeps. (my roommates senior year)
Another great weekend, was Peeps getting married! Such a fun time and a great group of girls!
This was a brittany's wedding, I had the best looking date there :) He was my rock during this week as it was CRAZY!
And of course, the biggest event Brittany getting married! It was so fun and we are so excited to have Adam in our family. Its weird I felt like Adam was part of the family even before the wedding, he just fits in perfectly!
Tyler leaves one week from today. It actually hurts to say or write that. I am an emotional person ALL of the time, I cry when I see a happy moment, Bawl when I see a sad moment and can usually cry at the drop of a hat. Its funny I find god is really testing me and I am really trying to make a life decision in the next few years. When Ty got into school it was just thought he would be there for 2 1/2 years and I would stay here. End of story. As the time has slowly creeped up on us it has gone from ok maybe I can move down there with like 6 months to go; or ok maybe I can last 1 1/2 with this job and then come; now its TAKE ME WITH YOU i can survive on white rice and soy sauce! It is an awful feeling and it has been in the back of mind mind for weeks. I am trying to be strong and super happy but for a super emotional person this is quite impossible. I know we can do this and that is not what I am sad about, it is I want to spend everyday seeing him and I know for 2 years we can not do that. I really can't fathom not seeing him everyday and laughing EVERYDAY multiple times. I describe this to my sister the other day as, my mind is trying to be logical and tells me you stay here and save money we are just boyfriend and girlfriend and we can last 2 1/2 years apart. Then my heart is saying what are you doing, go there, you can only live on a Caribbean island once in your life, forget about your job, you can survive on white rice and soy sauce (i really could)((and Diet coke)). Clearly the latter is much more exciting and what i want to do, but I am really trying to take it day by day.
Here is where I am at, If God wants me down there he will push me in the right direction and help me make the right decision. (if he pushes a job that I can do totally online from Grenada then I move :)) I am excited for him to leave, (i know weird!) because we can begin the good count down of his return and I can stop crying at weird times during the day. Also if you have ever seen the movie love actually where at the end of the movie she runs into his arms when he gets back and is at the airport, yes that will totally be me! We can also see how terrible it is, it might not be bad and I can last 2 years, or I will start to look into what I could possibly do there and probably visit to see if I could stand the slow pace :)
Well there are all of my feelings in a nut shell, this is what I have been thinking about for weeks. I believe this blog is great for letting out steam and feelings and that is just what I did. I believe the only person reading this would be tanner, Hi Tanner. I am going to come see you very soon!!
Happy New Year, lets hope 2010 is just as great as 2009! Beware of sad posts coming in a week, sorry in advance....
p.s. here is a picture of our group on new years eve; pretty little group aren't we.
I almost forgot, I don't do new years resolutions, but here are some goals.
-Take more pictures
-work out/yoga more
-travel
-make sure I love life!
Hey Kara... I think you better post as much as you can so I can keep updated on your emotional status. I am a little disappointed in the hottest date comment, I know for a fact the rice and soy sauce is legit, and you better come up with some warm clothes... the highs for the past 4 days and the next ten are in the teens (coldest weeks of my life). I am not God but if I was, this is what I would tell you: Keep making the dough and working hard, I know the distance from Tyler sucks, but the less time you have in person together now means the more time you can have in the honeymoon phase of the relationship where you are infatuated with him and his jokes when you are back in the same country again (when yall are old he won't seem as funny).
ReplyDeleteNot true, I'm a daily reader as well. :) Come to Atlanta & I'll dry your tears little peeps!
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