Makona Sun...

If you were to tell me its only been 2 weeks since Tyler left, I would fight you to the end. It has felt this months and I hate that but I know it will get better. Tyler really likes it and has found some great friends down there. So happy he is adjusted. He took some pictures for me and I was thinking to myself, HEY you re supposed to be in Med School not on Vacation. You should have brought me on your vacation jerk! Pictures Above!

I have been working from home this week, which is sometimes good but I think it was bad this week. I am back on campus next week and become a slave of Pearson starting on Monday. So i think this crazy next few months will keep my mind of Ty. As much as I hate work, I appreciate the opportunity to work really hard and keep me busy.

Last weekend was my Friend Laurens Bachelerette weekend. Pictures above! It was a great weekend to spend with my girlfriends. We spent many hours laughing and talking. That is some of my favorite memories from college, talking for hours. My friend asked the question, How were we able to talk to like 5 hours on the couch and never run out of things to talk about for 4 years! We are quite incredible if you ask me!! It was a great weekend and it was our first bachelerette party for this group of girls! Great times. We had a friend visitor his name was Makona Sun. Very interesting.....a blast and so many great stories!!

That is really what I have been up to. Also my mom and I are redoing my bedroom :) When I am finished I will post pictures. Trying to keep busy and counting down till March. I seriously can't wait its crazy. Tomorrow will be 5 weeks left.

Another thing I am trying to do is really live in the moment. appreciate this stage of my life and enjoy it. I said this to a friend that this is what she should do, I then took a step back and said me too! I have AMAZING friends and an unbelievable family. A terrific job, a mom that lets me life at home and of course the love of my life. (I know I am so Corny)
But Seriously way too Lucky!!

January 12th

Today is a good day because January 11th is gone :) I hate being negative or sad about something and January 11th was a sad day. Tyler and I drove down to Miami on Sunday night and stayed there so I could take him to the airport in the morning. We were so glad we went the night before so we could just hang out alone before he left. UNfortunatly I stared getting knots in my stomach at around 9pm. All we had been discussing was his departure, everyone was calling saying goodbye and we had all been gearing up for this since September. It was a very tough day and I miss him already. I know people say oh this will be a good thing for you two. I want to say oh really you think so, 2 1/2 years living without him, yah that sounds like a great experience. NOT! I hate when people say this, ok maybe like 8 months would be good so we could experience life without each other but really 2 1/2 years. I could have children in 2 1/2 years and start a job and quit it by the time he comes home.

Anyways, work becomes busy TODAY. I am not excited about it and that is why I am laying in my bed blogging. I have 2 presentations and a lot of busy work that needs to be done by friday. I don't have the energy to get to work as I know it will start months of craziness but I have no choice and I want to make LOTS of money so I can become a island girl :) jk but really.

Life is going to go on today and I am happy because today i start the count down when I get to see him for a weekend!! I thought we werent going to be able to talk last night because we didnt think he would have service and he has to set up his internet. BUT HE DID! I was so excited when i got a text that he landed. Then also I was so excited when my computer made a funny noise. It was skpe and Tyler!!! It was hard to see him because the lighting wasnt the best and he was in a room with many other students but there he was with his little grin. It made my heart melt. When I left him standing on the curb at the miami airport with his huge bags and A MILLION spanish people I could see the fear and nerves in his face for the first time. That broke my heart, so seeing him there and safe made me happy. He was going to grab dinner with some of the students which also made me feel happy.

One last point, I have the MOST AMAZING friends I could ever ask for. I had an overwhelming amount of calls, texts and emails from my amazing girlfriends and it made me cry almost everytime i saw them. They are amazing women and I love them for being so supportive. I couldnt ask for better friends, I am so blessed.

So today Life goes on and I count down till I see Ty!!! I am already excited!!! This is much better than waiting for him to leave. Have a great week!!

New Year :(

Some might wonder why I say New Year :(, as most normal people are excited for a new year and a new beginning. For once in my life I am not, for good reasons. I have had such a fantastic year this year, filled with friends, love, family and great achievements. Tyler moved back from Tallahassee in January of 2009 and that was a great next step, as we had been doing long distance for 8 months. I hit my number for work on January 1 in 2009, and was very proud of my accomplishments. My big sister got married in November of 2009 and it was a great month to see all of our family and friends together.

Here are some pictures from some favorite moments:

A Cruise we took with Tyler's sister Ashton and her boyfriend Anthony. It was a great time!

ADPi's 100 year celebration! It was so fun seeing everyone together! This picture above is my Peeps. (my roommates senior year)

Another great weekend, was Peeps getting married! Such a fun time and a great group of girls!

This was a brittany's wedding, I had the best looking date there :) He was my rock during this week as it was CRAZY!

And of course, the biggest event Brittany getting married! It was so fun and we are so excited to have Adam in our family. Its weird I felt like Adam was part of the family even before the wedding, he just fits in perfectly!

Tyler leaves one week from today. It actually hurts to say or write that. I am an emotional person ALL of the time, I cry when I see a happy moment, Bawl when I see a sad moment and can usually cry at the drop of a hat. Its funny I find god is really testing me and I am really trying to make a life decision in the next few years. When Ty got into school it was just thought he would be there for 2 1/2 years and I would stay here. End of story. As the time has slowly creeped up on us it has gone from ok maybe I can move down there with like 6 months to go; or ok maybe I can last 1 1/2 with this job and then come; now its TAKE ME WITH YOU i can survive on white rice and soy sauce! It is an awful feeling and it has been in the back of mind mind for weeks. I am trying to be strong and super happy but for a super emotional person this is quite impossible. I know we can do this and that is not what I am sad about, it is I want to spend everyday seeing him and I know for 2 years we can not do that. I really can't fathom not seeing him everyday and laughing EVERYDAY multiple times. I describe this to my sister the other day as, my mind is trying to be logical and tells me you stay here and save money we are just boyfriend and girlfriend and we can last 2 1/2 years apart. Then my heart is saying what are you doing, go there, you can only live on a Caribbean island once in your life, forget about your job, you can survive on white rice and soy sauce (i really could)((and Diet coke)). Clearly the latter is much more exciting and what i want to do, but I am really trying to take it day by day.

Here is where I am at, If God wants me down there he will push me in the right direction and help me make the right decision. (if he pushes a job that I can do totally online from Grenada then I move :)) I am excited for him to leave, (i know weird!) because we can begin the good count down of his return and I can stop crying at weird times during the day. Also if you have ever seen the movie love actually where at the end of the movie she runs into his arms when he gets back and is at the airport, yes that will totally be me! We can also see how terrible it is, it might not be bad and I can last 2 years, or I will start to look into what I could possibly do there and probably visit to see if I could stand the slow pace :)

Well there are all of my feelings in a nut shell, this is what I have been thinking about for weeks. I believe this blog is great for letting out steam and feelings and that is just what I did. I believe the only person reading this would be tanner, Hi Tanner. I am going to come see you very soon!!

Happy New Year, lets hope 2010 is just as great as 2009! Beware of sad posts coming in a week, sorry in advance....

p.s. here is a picture of our group on new years eve; pretty little group aren't we.

I almost forgot, I don't do new years resolutions, but here are some goals.

-Take more pictures

-work out/yoga more

-travel

-make sure I love life!