Makona Sun...

If you were to tell me its only been 2 weeks since Tyler left, I would fight you to the end. It has felt this months and I hate that but I know it will get better. Tyler really likes it and has found some great friends down there. So happy he is adjusted. He took some pictures for me and I was thinking to myself, HEY you re supposed to be in Med School not on Vacation. You should have brought me on your vacation jerk! Pictures Above!

I have been working from home this week, which is sometimes good but I think it was bad this week. I am back on campus next week and become a slave of Pearson starting on Monday. So i think this crazy next few months will keep my mind of Ty. As much as I hate work, I appreciate the opportunity to work really hard and keep me busy.

Last weekend was my Friend Laurens Bachelerette weekend. Pictures above! It was a great weekend to spend with my girlfriends. We spent many hours laughing and talking. That is some of my favorite memories from college, talking for hours. My friend asked the question, How were we able to talk to like 5 hours on the couch and never run out of things to talk about for 4 years! We are quite incredible if you ask me!! It was a great weekend and it was our first bachelerette party for this group of girls! Great times. We had a friend visitor his name was Makona Sun. Very interesting.....a blast and so many great stories!!

That is really what I have been up to. Also my mom and I are redoing my bedroom :) When I am finished I will post pictures. Trying to keep busy and counting down till March. I seriously can't wait its crazy. Tomorrow will be 5 weeks left.

Another thing I am trying to do is really live in the moment. appreciate this stage of my life and enjoy it. I said this to a friend that this is what she should do, I then took a step back and said me too! I have AMAZING friends and an unbelievable family. A terrific job, a mom that lets me life at home and of course the love of my life. (I know I am so Corny)
But Seriously way too Lucky!!

January 12th

Today is a good day because January 11th is gone :) I hate being negative or sad about something and January 11th was a sad day. Tyler and I drove down to Miami on Sunday night and stayed there so I could take him to the airport in the morning. We were so glad we went the night before so we could just hang out alone before he left. UNfortunatly I stared getting knots in my stomach at around 9pm. All we had been discussing was his departure, everyone was calling saying goodbye and we had all been gearing up for this since September. It was a very tough day and I miss him already. I know people say oh this will be a good thing for you two. I want to say oh really you think so, 2 1/2 years living without him, yah that sounds like a great experience. NOT! I hate when people say this, ok maybe like 8 months would be good so we could experience life without each other but really 2 1/2 years. I could have children in 2 1/2 years and start a job and quit it by the time he comes home.

Anyways, work becomes busy TODAY. I am not excited about it and that is why I am laying in my bed blogging. I have 2 presentations and a lot of busy work that needs to be done by friday. I don't have the energy to get to work as I know it will start months of craziness but I have no choice and I want to make LOTS of money so I can become a island girl :) jk but really.

Life is going to go on today and I am happy because today i start the count down when I get to see him for a weekend!! I thought we werent going to be able to talk last night because we didnt think he would have service and he has to set up his internet. BUT HE DID! I was so excited when i got a text that he landed. Then also I was so excited when my computer made a funny noise. It was skpe and Tyler!!! It was hard to see him because the lighting wasnt the best and he was in a room with many other students but there he was with his little grin. It made my heart melt. When I left him standing on the curb at the miami airport with his huge bags and A MILLION spanish people I could see the fear and nerves in his face for the first time. That broke my heart, so seeing him there and safe made me happy. He was going to grab dinner with some of the students which also made me feel happy.

One last point, I have the MOST AMAZING friends I could ever ask for. I had an overwhelming amount of calls, texts and emails from my amazing girlfriends and it made me cry almost everytime i saw them. They are amazing women and I love them for being so supportive. I couldnt ask for better friends, I am so blessed.

So today Life goes on and I count down till I see Ty!!! I am already excited!!! This is much better than waiting for him to leave. Have a great week!!

New Year :(

Some might wonder why I say New Year :(, as most normal people are excited for a new year and a new beginning. For once in my life I am not, for good reasons. I have had such a fantastic year this year, filled with friends, love, family and great achievements. Tyler moved back from Tallahassee in January of 2009 and that was a great next step, as we had been doing long distance for 8 months. I hit my number for work on January 1 in 2009, and was very proud of my accomplishments. My big sister got married in November of 2009 and it was a great month to see all of our family and friends together.

Here are some pictures from some favorite moments:

A Cruise we took with Tyler's sister Ashton and her boyfriend Anthony. It was a great time!

ADPi's 100 year celebration! It was so fun seeing everyone together! This picture above is my Peeps. (my roommates senior year)

Another great weekend, was Peeps getting married! Such a fun time and a great group of girls!

This was a brittany's wedding, I had the best looking date there :) He was my rock during this week as it was CRAZY!

And of course, the biggest event Brittany getting married! It was so fun and we are so excited to have Adam in our family. Its weird I felt like Adam was part of the family even before the wedding, he just fits in perfectly!

Tyler leaves one week from today. It actually hurts to say or write that. I am an emotional person ALL of the time, I cry when I see a happy moment, Bawl when I see a sad moment and can usually cry at the drop of a hat. Its funny I find god is really testing me and I am really trying to make a life decision in the next few years. When Ty got into school it was just thought he would be there for 2 1/2 years and I would stay here. End of story. As the time has slowly creeped up on us it has gone from ok maybe I can move down there with like 6 months to go; or ok maybe I can last 1 1/2 with this job and then come; now its TAKE ME WITH YOU i can survive on white rice and soy sauce! It is an awful feeling and it has been in the back of mind mind for weeks. I am trying to be strong and super happy but for a super emotional person this is quite impossible. I know we can do this and that is not what I am sad about, it is I want to spend everyday seeing him and I know for 2 years we can not do that. I really can't fathom not seeing him everyday and laughing EVERYDAY multiple times. I describe this to my sister the other day as, my mind is trying to be logical and tells me you stay here and save money we are just boyfriend and girlfriend and we can last 2 1/2 years apart. Then my heart is saying what are you doing, go there, you can only live on a Caribbean island once in your life, forget about your job, you can survive on white rice and soy sauce (i really could)((and Diet coke)). Clearly the latter is much more exciting and what i want to do, but I am really trying to take it day by day.

Here is where I am at, If God wants me down there he will push me in the right direction and help me make the right decision. (if he pushes a job that I can do totally online from Grenada then I move :)) I am excited for him to leave, (i know weird!) because we can begin the good count down of his return and I can stop crying at weird times during the day. Also if you have ever seen the movie love actually where at the end of the movie she runs into his arms when he gets back and is at the airport, yes that will totally be me! We can also see how terrible it is, it might not be bad and I can last 2 years, or I will start to look into what I could possibly do there and probably visit to see if I could stand the slow pace :)

Well there are all of my feelings in a nut shell, this is what I have been thinking about for weeks. I believe this blog is great for letting out steam and feelings and that is just what I did. I believe the only person reading this would be tanner, Hi Tanner. I am going to come see you very soon!!

Happy New Year, lets hope 2010 is just as great as 2009! Beware of sad posts coming in a week, sorry in advance....

p.s. here is a picture of our group on new years eve; pretty little group aren't we.

I almost forgot, I don't do new years resolutions, but here are some goals.

-Take more pictures

-work out/yoga more

-travel

-make sure I love life!

4th Year

It happens to be my absolute favorite time of the year! Everyone is happy, the house is so beautifully decorated, everyone is baking like crazy and it is so fun buying gifts for others. I really think Christmas is a time for everyone to take a step back and appreciate everyone in your life. Last night we had our annual girls christmas dinner. It started four years ago when we decided instead of giving 12 gifts to all of our girlfriends we should have a potluck and just be together for a night. And so it was formed the Annual Girls Christmas Dinner! It is getting harder every year to get everyone together. With three of the girls engaged and planning their weddings it gets tougher every year to pick a day and time for everyone to get together. WE are all getting so grown up so quickly! It really all happened about a year ago when everyone started getting engaged. In about a year we will probably have some pregnancies :) I love my girlfriends more than you know and am so blessed to have such supportive friends. The crazy part of this is I have more BEST girlfriends from adpi so I didn't have all of my best friends with me. I am so blessed and thankful for all of them. One of my girlfriends asked me about Tyler leaving and when I started talking about the drive home when I take him to the airport, my friend said you know what you have 10 girls right here waiting by the phone if you need us. It melted my heart and made me realized how lucky I really am. Here is a picture below of some of my best friends that were at the Christmas party. I love my life and am so thankful for my gorgeous friends and family! Can't wait till Christmas! p.s. Tyler will be at our house Christmas morning :) A first in our relationship and it gives me butterflies after 7 years we still have very exciting events ahead of us! Love him like crazy!

Merry Christmas Everyone!

Now What?

Life is flying by quicker than I can catch up with. Its already December 9th and that means we are only weeks away from Christmas. Life has been so busy for the last few weeks with Thanksgiving, the wedding, and other showers it all came to a screeching halt this week. I am now back to the regular day to day world and I have to say I miss all of the crazy upcoming events we have. Yes we have Christmas, but Brittany will be at her In-laws (still so fun to say) house for Christmas. In all of my 23 years I have never had a Christmas without my sister, it will be really different but I am so happy she gets to experience married life! She will be missed but we will see her hopefully right after Christmas!

Then comes New Years and then comes doomsday, January 11th. This is the day I have been saying for about 7 months now. This is the day Ty will leave for school. I am so excited for him to begin, because I know the sooner he starts the sooner the countdown for him to be done will begin. It will be a very interesting few years coming up, but I know it will make us stronger in the end and allow us to work on our careers and goals for a while. He is truly my other half, the days or nights that each other is working, we find each other constantly calling asking when the other will be done. Probably a good thing he is moving to another country where phone calls are expensive. I would be a HUGE distraction :) I am just going to have to take up some things that interest me. For example: I would love to become a runner!!! or I would love to learn how to sew. Thats just a couple ideas. We laughed last night talking about if we won the lottery what would be different. It is so fun to dream about the lottery and what you could do with the money. I would probably stop working :) and start volunteering A LOT! I love volunteering and wish I could do it everyday. I would also start to travel A TON!!! Spend many days with my family! Some of my favorite times are just sitting around and laughing. One of my favorite nights ever with them was just this thanksgiving, where we broke adam into our crazy family. We were watching a Beyonce special, and yes Brittany and I were FORCED into doing/attempting the single ladies dance. Trust me!!! It looks a lot harder than you think! I would also love to buy a cute little beach house, maybe like this below. So when I say cute little those are just two words I love to use together :)

Anyways, Life is great and I am so thankful for everyone that is in my life. It could not get any better :)

The New Mrs. Laws!

The day as come and passed so quickly! Brittany is now a married women and is now Brittany Laws! I am so excited for her and for her future with Adam. He is such a great guy that I know he will make Brittany happier than anyone else could! We love him. The wedding planning was a lot. You don't realize how much time, money and stress comes with it and I wasn't even the Bride. It was a great experience for me to go through and the day was beautiful! Everything looked great and was pretty perfect. The photographer that I am obsessed with was britt's photographer and was of course so amazing! She posted pictures already for a quick sneak peek and they were beautiful. Megphoto.com

Here are some pictures below from my camera and Greg's camera!

Fall is here!

It has taken until October 17th to be slightly cool and now its dropping to the 40's tonight! I was saying yesterday, Starting the day it gets cold in October begins my favorite time of year. I LOVE the weather, the smell of fall, the excitement building up for Christmas. These next few months are going to really fly by! Brittany's wedding is almost exactly one month away and that means we will be SOOO busy. Right after Brittany's wedding comes Thanksgiving and then Christmas. I can't believe it is already here. I have to say I am really excited for these next few months, but at the same time I am hoping it slows down because that means its Ty's time to leave for Medical School.

Today I had a little snapping moment in the car when I realized it was almost 3 years he will be gone. WIth breaks in between, but I did not react well to it. Ty is so great being supportive and reassuring, but I would like for him to say every once in a while THIS WILL REALLY STINK. I know he is so excited and I am excited for him, but September 2012 is when is will be done in Grenada. If I can just make it till then, I will be a happy girl. He constantly makes me laugh and it will be hard not having him.

Some of the things I absolutely love, that are very simple things in life:

Candles in the dark or rain

lamps in kitchens

wearing socks to bed..but then they fall off :)

Brushing my teeth in the shower

Fires in the fireplace

my blanket :)

Not ready to go back to work tomorrow but I really do appreciate my job and the life it is providing me. Not my dream job, but I do enjoy it.

Have a great week, Happy Fall!